So clearly I cant post everyday as life just seems to happen lol but I will try my hardest to at lest get a post up every other day. I got an interesting email today asking about why I decided all of a sudden to lose weight and was it a long thought out decision or was it just spur of the moment? To be honest its a little of both. For quite some time I knew I was getting bigger and that I needed to lose weight but I also didn't want to because for me to decide I needed to lose weight also meant I would have to face that I had a problem and only until recently did I really start to focus and see I was getting out of breath getting up out of bed and walking more than a few feet, I was getting dizzy if I got up to fast, being hot all the time. I decided a long time ago to lose weight I just never actually did anything until now.
I'm addicted to food. Not eating what I used to is making me sick and shaky and craving sugar like crazy, but now that I'm on day 12 its not as bad, if I see it in the store or something all I want to do is grab it and eat it but I know that doing that would make life the way it was with me all out of breath panting like a bulldog in a hot car whenever I got up or not being able to walk very far or getting dizzy again. I feel better eating how I'm eating and I feel more like I think I should and what I know I would've felt like all the time had I not eaten myself to blimp size.
I'm loving fruits and vegetables and yogurt and all sorts of new things now. Things I turned my nose up at and said eww before, Vegetables can taste good :) who knew right? I lost another 2 pounds bringing the total to 13 pounds lost I think. Don't go by my math though its horrible. weigh 221 right now so whatever that is lol. I love getting emails from people having the same issues I am or did and knowing that I'm helping them in some way or even making them smile a bit, every little thing helps.
Be the real you. Don't hide behind food or something like self injury, if you think you're fat go to a Dr get their opinion don't be afraid to talk to someone, or if you think you're too skinny talk to your Dr or a therapist or even a friend don't feel alone or like theres something wrong with you. Every ones got awesome in them some people just need some help to get it out there to show the world.
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