If Life Were a Video Game Things Would be so Much Easier

If life was like a video it would be so much easier at least to me. If something went wrong you can just go back to your last save point or you can just wander around, choose a storyline, live forever, hit the pause button when you need a break  the possibilities are endless when you think about. I could start at the point before I got fat or before i developed my panic disorder, or avoided people and situations that I know I should have but didn't and ended up paying for it in the long run. There are specific goals and achievements all listed in games so theres no need to make your own.

I was just playing a game and I had reached all the goals for that level but hadn't finished the level yet so I was just aimlessly flying around and said I don't know what to do without the goals and then thought about my life and how I don't really have any goals, I mean I have things I think about and how life would be once I reached that point in my life but none of them are really goals I'm driving hard towards, in a way having goals kinda scares me because if I set goals but don't reach them I can't really blame anyone but me. In a video game when you reach all the goals and beat all the levels and the credits roll that's it but in life theres no set list of what you're supposed to do that's up to you, I've made a series of bad choices that led me to where I am now, sadly life is not a video game not that I'm good at games because I suck as much at those as I do at life.

So I guess if I were to make goals they would be to overcome my panic disorder, lose weight and….. Well I'm not really sure that's where the list kinda ends, go to college? nah, I'm not really wanting anything academically, so I'm not sure where to go from there. Punch the asshole who keeps driving their stupid four wheeler up and down my road? nope, besides I need goals that don't include jail time although if I accomplish the weight loss goal I might also be able to escape prison with my small body and a little butter.  Get more cat shits? haha you can never have enough of those. This is hard, I guess ill just start with the first two and see what happens from there. Level 1: lose weight, overcome panic disorder,  get more cat shirts,yup sounds like a good start i'll let you know when I reach the next level.

   

When the credits roll at the end I hope I've achieved more than just lose weight and overcome my panic disorder, and getting more cat shirts. I don't know what else I want to accomplish but knowing me it will be awesome but somewhat stupid or weird or something only I understand. In the meantime I'm gonna just play this level of life and see what happens next.