Im Still Alive and Still Fat but I Love Myself Anyways

WOW! Sitting here with my computer plugged directly into the Internet box and  I can finally log in and post without the Internet dying or my computer going insane also have some super awesome nostalgia from the good old dial up desk top computer days haha. So sorry to not have been writing anything. I'm still in a funk but still attempting to lose weight at my own pace and in a healthy way. Taking supplements now and vitamins so theres that. Lately I've been trying to find things to keep myself busy, I've taken up painting again and done some clay sculpting.

I mean I'm still struggling with my depression, heck yesterday I sent a blubbery, incomprehensible email to someone whose been dead for a few years because I needed to express some feelings and thoughts that frankly I think if I told anyone id immediately be sent to the local loony bin, not that loonies bins are horrible places just I wanna make sure I end up somewhere nice and not somewhere like a  One Flew Over the Cookoos Nest kinda place ya know? Also I felt like since he couldn't answer I wouldn't be judged to harshly or at all really.Surprisingly  it helped in more ways than I can explain.

I'm doing the best I can with the life I live right now, some days are better than others but I've learned a lot and I'm still discovering new things about myself and hopefully finding some new ways to help me become more myself again. I feel like somethings missing, like any minute I could drift off to somewhere and never come back or theres an invisible force pulling me from inside further and further from my dreams.

Well this is the best I can come up with for now, here's some recent pics for y'all and again as I've said before I'm gonna try really hard to write more if this Internet holds up and I feel the need to write and express the mostly un scary parts of my brains lol

Also if anyone feels the need to talk or express something without being judged or I don't know made to feel crappy then feel free to email me: nt68863@yahoo.com if you end up not being creepy I might even give ya my cell number lol